I was still inside, still
reacting, but there was already
a slight distance, as if a part
of me was standing just aside
reacting, but there was already
a slight distance, as if a part
of me was standing just aside
At first it was almost
imperceptible – as if I would
occasionally step out of what
was happening, without fully
understanding what exactly
was changing...
imperceptible – as if I would
occasionally step out of what
was happening, without fully
understanding what exactly
was changing...
Several years ago, I started
noticing a strange thing
in my dreams
noticing a strange thing
in my dreams
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Then other moments began to appear. Very brief ones. When something
in what was happening didn’t quite align: |
in what was happening didn’t quite align: |
I tried to catch it,
To understand the moment
it happens and what it depends on. But no matter how many times I returned to these sensations, they slipped away. The dream would become whole again, dense, and I was fully
in it once more...
To understand the moment
it happens and what it depends on. But no matter how many times I returned to these sensations, they slipped away. The dream would become whole again, dense, and I was fully
in it once more...
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Sometimes it comes even earlier. Not even as an image. More |
And in that moment there was a strange feeling — as if I was seeing not the dream itself, but the way it was being assembled...
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But each time it becomes
a little clearer: |
a little clearer: |
As if something has already changed, but
I can’t yet see what exactly. And only
a moment later does
it become visible.
I can’t hold onto this state or enter it at will. It appears on its own and disappears just
as easily....
I can’t yet see what exactly. And only
a moment later does
it become visible.
I can’t hold onto this state or enter it at will. It appears on its own and disappears just
as easily....
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